I have my stuff (insert the other word) together

Last night as I was awoken by Claire, 'mommy sugar pi just puked in my bed'.  Oh the luxuries of having a dog.  Every now and then my dogs get these bugs, and I think they have nerves just like me. I couldn't go back to sleep.  I found my mind racing and thinking of all kinds of things.  One was should I take a full time job.  After a few thoughts and few hours later I had the thought, I wonder when and if I will get my stuff together! I thought by now I would have it all together.

While growing up I often thought 'I can't wait until I have my stuff (insert the other word) together'. Yes, I would think when I grow up I will have all my stuff together!  How many of you have thought that or still think that?  Someday I will have my stuff together.  Someday when I have all my stuff together.  So and so has their stuff together, I can't wait to have my stuff together like that!

I have been struggling for a few months now and I keep thinking I will start to feel better soon and things will all come together.  I have to say and I have said this before, this is a great adventure that I am on.  Knowing that God put me here for a reason and trying to figure that out is not as easy as said. I keep my head up and try to focus so I don't miss anything coming my way.  I have built a life as best as I can for me and my family.  I don't know where it will lead us and if it's all the right reasons but we are doing the best we can.  I go forward blindly knowing it will all be ok and it will all come together.

I know what some will say, 'you have it all together'!

Well, I then thought back to when I would say 'I can't wait until I have it all together'.  I think it is as far back as I can remember and I mean far back, like when I was 12 maybe 13.  'I can't wait to have my stuff together'.  So as I thought about this in the middle of the night and I asked myself, what would that look like exactly and what other stuff do I need to have it all together?  I realized that I do have my stuff together and I have had it my whole life.  As far back as life began for me I have had my stuff together.  Working for small goals even if I did not know they were goals.  Working to get from one place to the next.  My stuff has always been together.  It has been with me and accumulating as I go.  Right now seems like a blur because I am trying to keep all of that stuff together!

What does having your stuff together look like? Being married for 19 years in counting. Kids becoming teenagers over night. Dogs puking all over the place in the middle of the night, you are on your hands and knees cleaning it up knowing that if you don't do it now you won't want to do it later. Doing the dishes after you made a mess in the kitchen because you desperately want your family to eat a good meal.  Drive up and down the road taking kids back and forth to school and other activities.  The pile of clothes on your couch in the living room that you took out of the dryer but you leave it there because you think I will come back to that later in the day because I have other things that are more important to do. Bickering with your children over what the word NO means. Bickering with your children over why they can not wear that to school. Crying yourself to sleep because you miss something so badly that it hurts.  Laughing with your children and your spouse until you cry. Running to the store at 8pm to pick up worms, algae and a snail so that your kids can do a project for school. Making a difference in someones life with just a smile.

This is just a few things at what it looks like to have your stuff together! I guess I have my stuff together! Do you have your stuff together?