Friday, April 1, 2011

I can do it

Ok so with the winter months that have just past I have realized that I do not like....let me repeat DO NOT LIKE the winter here in Indiana. I look back at my life and I can honestly say the winters are probably my most unsatisfying experiences of my life.
Now I have to tell you that when I have good experiences of winter I am most likely on an adventure and not even here in Indiana. I will admit that there are somethings that I like....such as maybe a good dinner for christmas.....maybe even a get together with friends...or even a birthday celebration of Dan's. But that does not get me through the long boring days of gray and snow.....and not to even mention the snow.
So, with that in mind I haven't had much to write about in my adventures because well to be frank...i haven't been on any adventures in the past two months.
I have however been on the up and down of college life. I have studies my head off and didn't do well on exams. Made me think twice about what I was doing but isn't that what all college students do. Study and cram for a test and then take it to realize you didn't study enough or get exactly what the professor told you. Yep I know you have been there! you can not deny!!
With that said I have been on a challenge of my life. wondering if I am doing what I need to be doing with myself. I have asked myself ...."am I doing the right thing?" I don't know is the answer.
I will say this no matter how hard I try it will be ok. And the doors that will open up for me are endless. I do lack the confidence that I need to use the key to the doors to be open but it is ok it's all part of my journey. do not know where I am going but I know that there are doors that will be there to open when I am ready! :)
My adventure is this....
I was told recently by my professor....of a class I am not doing well in might I add....let me give you back ground on this one......
Ok....I have not done well in my class of which I thought I would do well in because I LOVE the subject....I went to my professor because well I really do like her, and I told her OMG I am not doing well...she admitted I was a bit of disappointment and thought that for my enthusiasm I should be doing much better in the class. I literally had a boo hoo moment with her and then she said something to me that let me just say might stick with me no matter what I get in this class or even if I get anything out of my college life......she told me as she grabbed my shoulders and said..."repeat after me.....'YOU CAN DO THIS'....." really did my teacher just say that to me? yes she did!!!!!! she just told me to tell that to myself......
WOW took that with enthusiasm!!!!!
so even if this winter was a blue one...which if it was any better for you, you are free to tell me about it because I know others had a blue winter too and still waiting on the much needed warm weather....I can walk away with this...I CAN DO IT!!!!
<3 love ya
Cinnie